The Texas Diaries (3)

*Your dream is a vision of that home in your soul which though hidden, is always present. In the midst of your existence, it surrounds you like a warm embrace embedding your image with the tools of the eternal builder. Having mastered your tools, when you combine faith with your dream, you erect a temple of your vision on the apex of your sky.*

As I stare up into the cerulean Texas sky, that electric star beam of light races by me. No further encouragement is needed for me to sit at the tip of its spear and ride off into the celestial sun that never sets. I only wish the fineness of my mind were fit enough to fully assimilate all I see, so that it could be conferred to others in one whole piece rather than surgically divided up. In order for you to understand the truth I must first prepare you for it. And for me to accomplish this, I must continue on my awakening. I used to think that once I turned 21, I would stop developing. Little did I know that my development would not even begin until after 25.

The cold lonely field is dim but the warm inviting gleam of dawn beckons. My eyes are opening but they are not yet fully opened. Light is coming in, but what is in front of me is still a mystery due to my lack of insight. So while I do see, explaining to others is something that will only advance as quickly as I’m able to understand. It really does not matter what you receive in this life if you do not understand what you received. Along the way life will bless you with tools. It really is up to you on how or whether you will use them.

Your value results not from how much you have or how much you bring to the table. Your value is determined by the pain you have endured and the degrees by which you continue to pursue truth and keep yourself worthy to receive more. The reason we are not perfect is because if we were, we would be lazy and proud–boastful of our superiority, lovers of ourselves above all else, all too ready to attempt to take the reins from the Almighty. (Foolishly enough, many of us are that way already!) So, what we have to keep us in line as the most blistering check & balance is what is referred to as pain. We have it and as unfortunate as it is, it is all the more unfortunate that we need it as much as we suffer from it.

Pain is a shield against your ego.

Your sky is how you see yourself. Looking upon that liquid lake of mirrors, who and what do you expect to see in the reflection? How you see yourself will largely determine whether or not you thrive. As I’ve stated in previous posts, your mind, if you program it to do so, can impose insurmountable challenges on you, day and night. And if left unanswered, they will last a lifetime, precipitously robbing you of the life you want and should be living. The good news is, it does not have to be this way. Seek after yourself. Learn thyself. Know thyself. When you do these things, you seek out your spiritual DNA. Not nearly as many of us know who we really are as we all think. So many of us spend our entire lives bound by obligations that suppress everything from the money in our accounts to our physical/mental health. When you know who you truly are, these petty challenges are much more surmountable.

I want to get you lifted. You are above your troubles and your time is NOW. There is no such thing as the perfect or right time. Your time and the opportunities you pursue is what you make of it. We are all directly connected to an everlasting vision of God’s mercy. Read that again–you are directly connected! Once you digest this truth, you travel through every algorithm of possibility inside the body of the Divine. When the belief that absolute failure is impossible for you sinks in, you begin to see the arrangement of this order referred to as life. This body you travel in is recognized in darkness and light. In this body, as you age, you don’t get older–you ascend. As we breakdown during our progression into old age, the physical breakdown that takes place is in part due to the foundation being laid for your next phase. It is so.

When you work here is done, your work elsewhere is just beginning.

I would not say it if I had not already seen it. Consider the last second of your time here as the end of your beginning. Every move you make here in this life programs what happens next. Think of your actions as hundreds of technicians going out ahead of you working tirelessly to endeavor the fruition of your structures. Your actions are your builders. Our actions are a visible power. To grasp and to understand this principle is to enlarge the coast of your soul. The rise that comes with time and experience is a growth that is prized even more in the next world than the one in which you reside.

For years I was mired in deep depression. These unfortunate incidents which compromised my internal peace made for countless undesirable moments. There is an evil that when it settles itself upon us, if we do not remove ourselves from its influence, it will lead us down the bowels of disaster. When we allow evil to engineer our choices in life, we are sending out the wrong technicians in front of us. So structures will be constructed that are inherently designed to hold you back. There’s all kinds of construction taking place behind your veil. Your thoughts are a wave source of powerful energy.

Grasping the nature of yourself and earning understanding from the crucible of mistakes does nothing less than contribute to your advance. The dangers that unfold when one is unable to command the resources of their mind are obviously detrimental with regard to mental and emotional fitness when one daily engages against the same negative feelings, sentiments, among other disagreeable adversity. Every paper I write is a security against these disorders of the soul.

Your soul is a solid milled plurality of the Infinite.

When you stop learning you stop progressing. I only wish that in my youth so simple a precept would have stayed ingrained in me for longer than a half-day. For days, tears engulfed me, but now the dark clouds have expired. Much of my youth was spent wading in my own water. As I close my eyes and float above the stars, I look down at the treacherous storms that once encircled me. The only evidence of the foulness of those days are the words that at last rise up from their slumber. When I look upon the ocean of black spread across the terrain of the heavens, my heart glitters like Gold upon the stars that shuffle in my wake.

If all you exhibit in your mind is frightful monstrous energy, your dreams in this life will suffer an ill-conceived disaster of an existence. After years of participating in these battles, I came to find that out the hard way. So if you want to save yourself time, and live a better, happier, more productive life doing more of what you want when you want, you need to sell yourself on a new line of thinking. Specifically, you need to sell yourself to your mind. You have to get inside your own head and make changes. In this matter, everything starts with you. At this point, when and how you will finish is not important. The priority is starting. Being that you cannot have one without the other, starting and finishing can arguably be imagined as intertwined to the point by which each seems either.

Starting is even more important than finishing because if you never start, you’ll never finish.

In the ritual of radiant energy known as life, I search for that infinite spring of enlightenment to pour into my work which bears fruit that only the tree of high truth can provide. The lit stairwell that proceeds from the heart of the roots only grows brighter with your rise. The higher you climb, the brighter the steps become, because as you ascend, the sunburst inside your soul flourishes with each step. You were given all kinds of gifts unbeknownst to you. The importance is not knowing you have the gifts, but recognizing that you do, even if you are not sure precisely what they are and why you were chosen.

We all strive to make clear the realities of the unseen. To make sense of what’s behind the veil, we use what we know from what we see. When the reality of truth reveals itself to the mind of man, even the dead inside that seek their end look for ways to begin anew. To be alive and feel dead inside is a penalty too much for any of us to bear. I remark on this specifically, because for years, this is how I felt day in and day out. Even that expression itself–day in and day out–no day should ever feel like you are just going through the motions. Every single day should be an adventure. When the most depressed among us adopt this belief and take full ownership of it, everything in the internal environment changes. If you want to change your outside world you must first change the inside. This is the spark that lights the fuse which will elevate you to new heights.

Life can be thought of as an active protest of man against death.

Even for those of us inclined to kneel before our grave, there is a universal intuition amongst us all that seeks life. It is all well, being that your beginning originated at the most high. Amongst the pillars of Angels, you have no choice but to respect the order that toils on your behalf pulling for you to live up the greatness that inspired you. You see, you are never dead. To insinuate such is to attempt to take that which does not belong to you. By even attempting to do so, you leave your life behind, not only during your time on Earth, but after.

Your thoughts are the greatest depository of your wisdom.

As someone who contemplated suicide in his youth, all I can think in the here and now is about all the motives that induce practicable men of sense to rationalize their dissolution. In this series of the pitfalls of misguided souls, I will share any sound suggestions I can come up with. For me, I always had a difficult time with loss. I ever failed to realize that what was lost still exists, even if not in this place, in another time and world. With whatever is lost, ultimately, it will be found and you will be restored. It may not come back to you when you want it to. But it will come back, even if that means the next life. To think otherwise is a mistake which will rob and steal valuable seconds of your life. Nothing dishes out pain as severely as crippling mistakes.

To deal with pain from mistakes made is the epitome of ascendency, in that what follows, is a new reality which inherently prioritizes the ideal. On bended knee, upon the altar of the almighty one true power, I seek guidance and forgiveness with every word that crawls through my fingertips. Inside that house behind the veil, faced with the responsibility of eternal life beyond the coffin, the imposing visage of immortality reveals itself. Taking inventory of the countless sins made on Earth upon arrival in New Heaven makes the soul quiver with road rash level goosebumps. All these problems with people and the planet–blame it on ego.

It is this predilection to ego that is the reason why secrets remain secrets. Power could and would be freely given if we all could be entrusted with it. Being the imperfect bodies of energy that we are, there are limits imposed upon us. Can they or will they ever be lifted? That, I do not know. I only know that is for the Infinite to decide. Even those who seek will not find before their time. The patience required of this journey demands a perseverance and commands a discipline which renders only those who are ready, are to receive it. What I refer to as high truths–These high truths are earned, because it is not meant for everything to be revealed to everybody. The personal fitness of one’s soul is what prepares the elect few for qualification. The desire to keep ascending only increases when you become known to yourself and not to the world.

In your search for yourself, you take part in the greatest initiation of them all–becoming that which the Infinity intended for you.

The unity of the soul and God humbly takes possession of my energy in the search of absolute truth.

–Daniel Cousin

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