Hundreds of thousands dead. Hundreds of thousands of livelihoods lost. Millions out of work. Businesses that have been open for generations shuttered. Families and friends separated from one another over the holidays due to social distancing. All around me, I see suffering. Sadness. Frustration. Angst. Despair. I see pain. I Continue Reading
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The Weight Of It All (Part 3)
If you’ve made it this far, you know the exact reason for that selfie taken in the bathroom mirror. *If you don’t know the meaning, take a look at Part 1 & Part 2 by clicking on the requisite titles. As for the rest of you, I’ll pick up where Continue Reading
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The Weight Of It All (Part 2)
I took unrelenting pain and associated it with my eating habits. All of this happened while standing on that scale. Our minds are always several steps ahead of wherever we are. I do not profess to understand how it works. I just know that it does so in mysterious ways Continue Reading
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The Weight Of It All (Part 1)
From my earliest memory I never liked school. The time commitment always bothered me. Being forced to give up a minimum of eight hours of my day (not including any after school related activities), five days a week, was too much time for me to willingly want to give up. Continue Reading
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The White Paper
*I do not know what I’m about to say here. This is free-writing. No planning. This is what happens when I just “let go.* There is nothing more powerful in life than a clean sheet of paper. It is one of the most potent embodiments of power and potential there Continue Reading
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The Iron Therapy (Part 2)
*To get full context, please click here and read part 1. While not required, it does help flesh out some of the things I go over in this post.* My first real job I’ve ever had was at what was formerly known as Fletcher Jones Lexus (now Lexus of Las Continue Reading
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The Iron Therapy (Part 1)
My intolerable depression was driven by my intrepid abuse of self-inflicted confirmation bias. Every faculty of my attention was laser focused on anything that supported my belief that my existence was responsible for the breakup of my family. As a teenager, I focused intensely on my failures, because I told Continue Reading
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Out Of Time
I encountered the warm embrace of my demise. I say warm, because that is how it felt when I was being confronted by my mortality. I will never forget the feeling. I felt the degrees of closure setting in upon me. I was overcome with a sense of calm and Continue Reading
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How To Live Your Best Life!
When purpose exceeds desire, your life is never the same. Looking back, fervently do I wish I had known and understood so simple a concept as this. Until very recently, I had always operated from the emotion of desire. I believed that if I wanted something badly enough, that in Continue Reading
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Why Do I Fail?
I have been such a failure. I have lost and been forgotten. I have tasted the bitter venom of being nullified to the point where all I felt was a bucket of despair being poured out onto me. At times, life has been a struggle. And for much of my Continue Reading
